What is something you want to "get off your chest"?
15.06.2025 07:51
I never returned a call. I never called first. I did answer some calls but it was short and whenever I went to her house (this all started to happen after I was maybe 11 between 13) I just stayed in my room and barley hung out with her
I never did that and I feel so guilt and bad after but I just did it again
I think it’s my depression but idk maybe it’s me cause I’d never want to call anyone incuinf her
Why did McLaren hope that the Ferrari pair would pit twice during the Italian Grand Prix?
I told her to give it to me or my teacher or anyone she saw she knew that I KNEW in my part of the school and she gave it to some fucking stranger and I don’t know where it is now
I miss her so much and I feel so much guilt . I was close with her
Sometimes it’s funny but I’m just so tired of feeling out of place with everyone
I can’t even think about actually eating other stuff
I eat the same thing every other day . Pasta, macaroni, fries, beans (or sometimes eggs) with tortillas, and sometimes cheese bread from little Cesar’s. Its the same fucking thing every day
this is a rant/vent and not worth reading. Major tws here for a bunch of shit
What can you do if you are a full-grown adult, but never experienced being a child?
I can’t stop crying I feel so weird and I know I am
My arm rlly hurts rn cause I just scratched it to the bone
I can’t anymore I just hate it
I wouldn’t have done it if I knew
I made a new friend though and I’m happy about that
My grandmothers death isn’t helping either
Why did my ex replace me so fast?
I grabbed him and was about to do it but I stopped because I didn’t want to hurt him
I hate seeing my dad my brother and siblings cry
I think
What's your wildest & weirdest fantasy?
.dont tell me to get help, I’m fully aware that I need it.
I’m 15 btw idk if anyone will ever read this or maybe myself when im older
There’s been times I’ve done it to drawn feral porn and I hate it so much. Why do I like to put these bad things that I find so disgusting and hate it so much on myself as if I’m one of them
What are some effective ways to cope with loss and grief?
And this voice and body, I hate it. I sound like a little girl and I look like a kid. I don’t want to be a girl
Likes we’re not siblings
I also look at people dying and being abused like gore shit
Do empaths fall easier for abusive people?
Just wanted to put it out there
I’m afraid that whatever this is, my anger issues and depression, is gonna cause me to hurt someone I love in the future
“your mom” that rlly hurts though when she say it
I want to kill myself but I know I can’t. I have a quince coming up and my mom and dad would have wasted ten thousand on it . I wish I knew how much it’d cost
Like I wanna fly and be an animal tbh
It’s been a long time and I can’t handle it anymore
What was your first trans experience like?
My room is a mess it’s like a hoarders house. I’m not even exaggerating. There’s clothes and random shit all over and I can’t even see the floor and I still keep bringing stuff in
I think my mom favors me and that makes my sister have some kind of hidden dislike for me but I know she loves me
and I wasn’t raised like how I should’ve. I’m whitewashed and I get made fun of it
I think if I had children, I’d abuse them when I’m mad. That’s why I don’t want children. I don’t want to hurt them but these urges to just hit and throw and break stuff is so strong to the point I have to harm myself to get rid of it
When I was younger (prob around 9-10h I got so mad that I thought of throwing max against the dresser really hard
He also has anger isssues I think. One time he got so mad that he threw a plate at the wall and it broke
I’d go the the movies with her sometimes and watch movies on tv with her and sit in the living room with her but that’s just about it
I think I’m scared to lose another friend
I masturbate every once a while to porn and I hate it but it feels good and every time after I do it I feel disgusting and horrible
I just feel so bad. My sister never got one cause at the time they were poor (I wasn’t alive then) and I’m spoiled now and I can do things she couldn’t when she was younger
My body my voice, especially my voice
I never saw them cry and it hurt to see my dad especially cause he rarely does
I genuinely don’t know what to think of myself anymore
But I just wanna disappear and not exist. I don’t like this world. I like my life but not how I live or how this world functions
I just feel so guilty about everything I do. I’m weird and I hate it and I don’t like myself
I hate myself so much
I gave it to my friend so she can sneak in popcorn for me, that I gave her money to buy for me since they wouldn’t let me
I can’t get rid of it. I wanna peel my skin off and hide away. I felt so exposed at school without my sweater
And she ate half of the popcorn
and I’m such a picky eater
I can’t even do the simplest things like washing my own dish or picking up the dogs poop and I make such a big deal about it every single fucking time
Max was under there too so I tried getting him out and he growled and I hit him again and again each time
I want to be a boy
They’re both small dogs
He cried and I let go but I still pulled him out to kick him out
I want to but I can’t
I just pulled frosty out under my bed by his arm even though I knew it would hurt
And my fucking phone wouldn’t let me know when she would call and when she would leave voice mails saying to call her back when I can and that she loves me
My heart hurts so much it feels like it’s being squeezed and thrown around
I hate it
I don’t want that and I don’t know how to get rid of it but I’m scared to get help like what do I even say to them? That I hit and abused my dog and have the urge to hit and throw things and scream like I’m some abuser?
About all my friends
I hate her she’s so annoying and always touching and hitting me but I don’t know why I put up with it
Idk tbh